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I'm sorry I can't be perfect...I'm sorry I can't be fast...I'm sorry I can't show my love in a better way...I'm sorry I do bad things, but its just to make you laugh...When I turn around and look at something else instead of paying attention to you...Know...That it's not because I think your boring...but Because I'm special...Not special as in were you have to pay attention to me...but special, as in, I need time to be understood. When you say..."Never mind." I do not forget and move on. I remember and feel awful...For I have not payed attention to you...And you have not excused my slowness...But to me have punished me for it...I do bad things not to make fun of you...But to gain your attention because I wish to be the center of your world.
Please don't hate me...For I only love you. I could never be mad at you. Yet I wish you could never be mad at me...Do you...say "Never mind" Because you've given up on me? Please don't leave me...I'm sorry...I just have a problem understanding...I can't go from the ground streight to a flower...I need time to grow...I want to be a perfect and pretty flower for you...I want to be your prize winning flower...Your muse...I want to be a girl you can be proud of...I'm sorry I'm slow...But I can't be perfect...If God would let me...I'd be the perfect girl in the world...All for you...
Why won't you understand...? Please don't try to say something and then leave me...No, no...Don't go! I push you away, but I want you closer...Please don't give up on me...Please...I only want to be perfect...Perfect for you...Can you understand...? Maybe you can't...
Because if you could understand...I wouldn't be writing this poem...
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