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my words...my pain..my life....
you need help...cant you see that..?
seeing you become weaker...
less productive...fading away little by little...
please..become what you once were...
stop making your life shorten...just to get more sweets...
they are killing you...cant you see that...cant you understand that...
you need to become more healty..more active...
or you will not live a long life...or at least not a healty one...
you sleep all day..most days..lay or sit..barely get up unless to get more food or go to the bathroom..to watch tv..
stop it..just STOP IT!!!
i cant bare to lose another person...
do you want me to be an orphan..?
because that is what will happen if you keep going down this road...
my father died when i was a baby...so will you leave me now as a teenager..?
well...? please,please just knock it off...PLEASE!!!
you need to be healthy...you need to exercise...for right now...
when you walk from your room to the couch..it causes you to breath slightly heavier..
so please..i dont want to loose you..just stop this path you are on right now...
turn away far away from it!..
create a new one...a healthier one..
please..i know you didnt want me..
but please do this one favor for me now..
i cant lose my last parent..you are both my parents to me..
my mother and father...since never knew him...
you had to take his role for me and my older sister...
we cant lose you..please become more active and healthy...
no more sneaking food...or late night snacks...no more of that!
you hear me... but i cant bare myself to say this to your face..
no i cant..but cant you see what is happening to you...
well...?


writer's note:
wrote this on 2-24-10...during lunch...of course these stupid words had to come to me during school!! stupid emotions!..but either i could have lost them forever or write them down knowing they would cause tears..which they did! ... -_- im a loser..im pathic..having tears roll down my face during freaking school!!..what a pathic coward i am....but i needed this to be written down..not sure why though...even typing this formed two tears in my eyes... -_-...hate emotions..hate pain..hate life... emo






User Comments: [2]
Phantom Wolf of Darkness
Community Member





Tue Mar 02, 2010 @ 12:48am


You are NOT a pathetic coward or a loser!!! its okay to have emotions, even when you cry. once you cry, your leting it all out. just right after you would feel better. but if you need a shoulder to cry on..i would be happy to lend you mine =)


vampiregirl_night_13
Community Member





Tue Mar 02, 2010 @ 03:34am


thanks ashley for saying that...but idk..feel like i am..and aww thanks your a great friend *hugs you*


User Comments: [2]
 
 
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