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I'm stuck. Slowly I've drifted off into the point of no return. My voice seems so vacant, so distant, not to say what I truly think. My thoughts drift away, and my head becomes empty. I've stopped in my tracks, only to find that there is no way out.

Why? Is it because I fear? Am I frightened to face how I really feel? Must the truth be pushed aside and avoided? Does it need to be forgotten?

I can't just pretend that nothing happened. It's too much, too fast, too soon. I'm at a loss for words. My lips move, yet nothing is heard. My heart beats faster, yet no blood runs through my veins.

I am numb.

Voices are telling me to give up, my heart says to push on. I'm dizzy and senseless, with wandering eyes that see nothing but darkness. Starlight dim and moonlight dead, I have no option but to stand in isolation. Will I survive? Can I make it out alive?

Forgive me...