So the tables have turned, to coin a phrase....
I'm still waiting for him, and my heart still aches but it's been dulled by the romantic attention that it recieves from others. Now, he is suffering, I wish that I could say it doesn't feel at least a tiny bit good to know he's suffering too. I believe that if we're meant to be fate will make it happen.
So, I guess I should get onto the other things going on in my life...
-Sean is amazing and it took forever to find a real flaw, his FLAW is that HE NEVER PICKS UP HIS PHONE! It's terrible. We never talk unless we're together. I havent seen or barely heard from him in a week and I'm just thanking my lucky stars that we're not in a relationship or I would have killed him by now. He's sort of a jerk....It sucks... I dont even really like him much anymore. Lame. I feel as though he just uses me when I'm available to him and the one time I wasnt, he seemed sorta ticked off. Well Guess What!? I'm not a tool for you to play with anytime you want!
-So, my best male friend Brendan and I have epic adventures together unfortunately we've established the slight awkward tension that we have together. It cant happen, I'm not attracted to him that way but for some reason... it just happens. Weirrrddd
-I tried to stop smoking for my fathers return, I made it a whole week and I was doing ok. Except for the terrible bouts of horniness. Like BAD. I didnt put two and two together until I was shaking and needed a smoke then it all just went away....Bodies are weird.
--So, today at school this boy cuddeled on me and made a move....oddly enough I just went for it. I dont really regret it. It was just a kiss but, I'm not like that. The NEED just became too overwhelming, I guess. Ugh. I miss Dave, and I miss our daily sexcapades. They were mindblowing. He ruined sex for me with any other man. I'm sure of it
.-Tonight I shall finish my tripp pants, they will be amazing.
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