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I've had so much going on lately....not physically, but in my mind. I still don't think I've found myself, but I have been thinking about what I want out of life, and what's important to me. My priorities are not what they should be, but this thinking has been about what they are, not what I pretend they are to gain acceptance from others. I still am unsure of a future career path, but I shall keep moving forward on the path I'm on until I figure it out. Everything else is falling into place piece by piece, and I'm working it out as I go.

What I want most in the world right now is to have a family of my own, complete with a pregnant wife and a 3 or 4 year old. I blame my biological clock for this one, but when such a family (only it was a husband) walked into CB the other day I almost cried as this desperate wanting filled me and left me wishing with all my heart that that was me and my family walking in. Point being, I'm not ready financially to have a family, and there are steps I need to take.

Step 1: Get a better job/another job/ more hours at current job
Step 2: Get an apartment (450-550/month rent)
Step 3: save as much money as possible
Step 4: Get Yamatra into Massage School
Step 5: Buy furniture that is necessary (couch)
Step 6: Decide between doctor AI or Home AI and between known or unknown donor
Step 7: Get Yamatra Pregnant
Step 8: By 11/2016 Get me pregnant

Yeah, I know there's more to it but this is a rough plan of sorts...I have to start with something. For now I am getting enough hours, but we need to save up for a security deposit and pet deposits. After that we'll hopefully be ready to move.

Well, off to work with me.