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The world is forever changing, forever spinning, forever orbiting. Seconds go by, changing into minutes, changing into hours, and then days fade by. Then weeks. Then months. Then years. We all lose ourselves in time with all our changing. We hold on to the past and fear the future. And somehow doing this, the being they call God tells His children to hang on and never let go. But to what? It differs for each and every one of us. Some of us hang on to past memories, some of us hang on to their hope for the future. I hang on to what I truly am. Or at least I grasp for it. It's hard to hold onto something that's always changing, no matter it be night or day, for good or bad, for better or for worse, for life or for Death. I can feel myself changing, physically, mentally. I guess we all can. It just depends on if you want to. I want to feel myself go through this metamorphosis, force myself to experience the pain, the sadness, the joy. I want to live until my life ends, until whoever He is decides that my life is over and that I truly know that what happens has happened, until He decides I have experienced all that I possibly could within a lifetime. I'm a junior now and even though I tell myself I've felt every emotion known to man, I've only scratched the surface of life. We all have. Some of us get deeper than others. Few actually reach the outer shell, but no one could ever reach the heart of the meaning of life. Ever. Life isn't all fun and games, it isn't all happiness. Death, poverty, disease. All this is going on in our world and all any single person can think about is themselves. Even those wanting to do good things to help people are really doing it for personal gain. Perhaps I am a cynic, a non-believer in the goodness in the hearts of men, but that's me, and you're you. I can't stop you from doing what you want and you can't stop me. Yes, there are obstacles, but there is really nothing that can stop us from doing what we want. No matter how high those obstacles and walls might seem, there's always a way over it, around it, heck, you could go through it if you had enough TNT and a great will. Most of us follow the wall to wherever it will lead and I can't blame them. Walking takes much less energy than climbing straight up can and it seems much easier, but it won't lead you to where you want to go. What will you do if the wall ends? How could you know where it would end? Nobody, no, barely anybody really, truly thinks about the consequences of their decisions, ever thinks ahead to future and what they'll be doing in say, fifty years from now. Yes, the future varies, but your destination should still be the same. In fifty years from now, I want to be a writer and musician. Sure, it'll be tricky to get there, but I've got a great heart, a strong will, and who knows, a great partner who will help me climb those obstacles. Friends and family are there to help us scale those walls and we have to do the same. We have to help them reach their goals, all the while keeping our final destination in mind. Side trips will be expected, but life wouldn't be fun without them. I mean, who would want to spend years trying to scale a wall when you could pause for a second and follow another path that could lead you to an easier place to climb? Take chances, believe in yourself, listen to your heart, yadda yadda yadda, all that cheesy stuff. Sound cliche? Well those people were onto something and I think I'm onto something too. Screw high school drama, screw reputations and popularity and all that nonsense. I'm moving on, following the road of my dreams, trying as hard as possible to get to my final destination with great friends and family members help me. After all, I'm still at the beginning of my road.

-Bri