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Darkness surrounds me
Selfishness controls me
The wind howls
In the dark night
As I look for a safe place to hide.

Far away from this world
I must run
Find a new life
A new home
Set up a new way
Away from
The destruction I've caused.

But what more can I do?
There is not much more
I can do to change
I'm nothing more than average
And I'm nothing to
Anyone
And what else
Could you want from me?

'Cause life is swirling
Down the drain
Suicidal thoughts
Fill my mind

And I'm breaking down...
And I'm crushed...
And I'm broken...
Under all of this pressure
No one knows...
No one cares...
No one sees me...
Under all of this pressure

And I've told you
Time and time again
I don't care about
Your stupid lies
And your wimp-ish charm

Because I'm not falling for it
This time
Your just a smudge
On my life canvas
That can be easily forgotten
Yet why am I still
Under so much pressure?

'Cause life is swirling
Down the drain
Suicidal thoughts
Fill my mind

And I'm breaking down...
And I'm crushed...
And I'm broken...
Under all of this pressure
And no one knows...
And no one cares...
And no one sees me...
Under all this pressure

I'm panicing inside
Screaming outside
Forcing myself into
This slow and painful sleep
There is no state of mind
Left for me to consider
The possibilty of
Life or Death

This pain ripping
Inside of me
Is more than
I can take
Let the bloodbath begin
As all this pressure
Rushes to my head

I'm dead from the inside
Looking out