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These violet delights have violet ends
And in their triumph die,like fire and powder
Which, as they kiss, consume.
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Glache... going to the shadow world... without me...the thought of him becoming a shadow... staying a shadow, for eternity...it was ...
unbearable...unbearable knowing that Glache was very likely to be killed
, that i would never see him again... i felt disconnected from my body.
i tried to move but my legs were frozen. i fell and leaned against something hard.a tree?i didnt know and i didnt care. my head was spinning and i was sure that i would faint, but i didnt. Our bond runs so deep, i thought.now Glache leaving, me not hearing his thoughts his words,his emotions... i felt empty.it felt like there was a big part of me missing.me and Glache have been together for five years and we were connected. how was i supposed to live with him gone. our bond was too great. i heard growls behind me, monstrous.im supposed to feel scared, i thought.But i just felt cold even though the forest was very warm.i didnt feel any fear just a cold numbness.suddenly i felt something wash over me, canceling every emotion, slowing my heart to a normal pulse, sinking me under. i was so numb that i had ceased to move or feel anything at all. Was this a spell of Glache 's? was the monstrous growl part of the delusion that had shown me Glache as a shadow in the shadow world? with the strength i had, i clung to the image of Glache and felt a delusional bond shoot through me. i began to say a spell to give me energy but it didnt work i repeated it three times, pronouncing every word correctly. but it didnt work.
suddenly the delusional Glache in my head evaporated. i tried to think of him again but i couldnt. then everything i clung to of Glache slipped away and i had strength to move again.