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(Bleh...Mornings..)

Mornings in my life seem meaningless if not hurtful. My heart goes out to all my loved ones in different time zones. I wake up 7am and it's already 10 in some places...I'm never free till the afternoon east coast time, or midwest time. I live so far away from where I throw my heart. I can't stand having a great evening with someone, then I barely wake up and their life is already full of Hell. I feel like I am inadequate sometimes, and I truly wonder if I am worth the trouble. It's easy to sit and feel like I'll never be free and I'll always have to sneak around to get what I want...somebody please tell me it won't always be that way. Am I worth it? If you could have a best friend or loved one a couple blocks down or someone who can visit you without a problem...would you still wait for me? I feel helpless when something happens to someone distant. All I have to give is me...tell me that's worth taking!

Ugh...sorry..I go through these thoughts and pains every morning...I already long for the night...God Bless you all...