So today I'm going to go get ice cream with a friend I haven't seen within a year. My mom comes and says "I'm scared for your fxcking craving for ice cream", in other words, she's scared I'm going to have sex with him. I hate when she does this. Just because I'm with a boy that I've known for five years and decided to hae sex with him does not mean I'm going to go around sleeping with every man I see! Ugh, I hate when she does this. Why is that once I have a boyfriend, I automatically turn into a slut? That makes no sense at all! I love my boyfriend very much and I've known him for five years. On top of that, we were both virgins when we decided to have sex. This was MY decision. I wanted to have sex with my boyfriend because I loved him very much. I don't think that there is anything wrong with what I did and no one will ever change my mind about it!
I've been depressed all summer and I haven't been doing much except hanging out with my boyfriend for this whole summer. I've been doing some stuff occassionally but not much. The doctor told me that I should stop staying inside and go out with friends and have fun! That's what I'm doing! I just want to catch up with an old guy friend and have ice cream. I know him, he's a sweet guy and he wouldn't do anything that I wouldn't like. That's the reason why I'm hanging out with him, I would'nt hang out with a guy if I know he would try to swing at me.
Wow I'm glad that gaia has a journal, i feel so much better about everything =]
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