not gonna lie; i enjoy it and knowin that it happenz.
i think itz flattering.
however.... knowin that my favorite mistake/dark ex iz doin it still- annoyz me.
i wouldn't mind now, had thingz ended differently.
he cut me off and cut me out of his life and forced me to not only stop craving his friendship and wantin it baddly- but to actually dislike and stop carin for him.
so he could let go of me.
cuz i'm that kinda friend. i don't like letn go or abandonin people. but
he said he wanted/needed me to do that.
i told him i wouldn't/didnt want to, but along w/the fact it annoyed all my friendz that i still love my favorite mistake (totally unromantically az it haz been for a year now) and hope he iz well and wish i could still encourage him or b supportive; i've let go.
when i hear his voice or see he iz n zOMG! i get enraged and want to just flee cuz a seriouz dislike and hurt well up nside me so strongly. for thoze of u who have ever been rejected; u can understand that feelin i'm describin. it took me forever to get it that i am a horrible online gf and stuff. and i suppoze that not everyone can take my brand of devoted/loyalty and friendship. so fine. no more, right.
but i keep seein at least once a month.... that he visitz MY profile w/a mule acct. thing about that one iz, he knowz how to go undetected. he iz the one that informed me on the art of stalking people and profile diving. so i'm bothered that,
he iz intentionally makin sure i can see him. WHAT THE HELL, DARK! GO AWAY!!! u turned ur back on me and pushed me away. no need to keep tabz on me. not like u cared more about me that u did about urself. jeeperz! u forced me to let go and to not care.... itz hard to do if u r watchin me and letn me know about it.
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