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For next week, I should be working 29 hours. I'm not sure this is because there are new people, or if Mark knows its my Spring Break. If he knows its my spring break, then hes one sneaky SOB.

I also plan on talking to him about taking the produce exam to either transfer over to produce or become a cashier. I'm tired of being the dog of the supermarket industry; its time to move up a notch.

I've also come to a decision and I will stick to it. I am ignoring a certain person at work. I can't be bothered by the mixed messages that are really ******** up my mind. I cried like a little girl last night, and earlier this evening because of it. I'm foolish to think that there was something there, so I will block it out.

I have no idea how people find someone that will care for them, I just wish it would be easier for me. Just a tad. I'm too scared to ask why he is doing this, because the messages are so mixed.

Its going to be hard ridding myself of these feelings. I give it two weeks at most, if I work on it.

If love was a game of baseball, I'd have the lowest batting average.

My supervisor got a kick out of that, and reassured me that I am better than most and shouldn't have much trouble.

I'll be okay.

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I also learned the real last name of my half brother. I'm going to look for him when I go back to NC sometime this summer. It's only a 5 hour drive from where I'll be saying to Toledo, Ohio. If I find him, I'll kick him in the groin for good measure.

Then I'll say hi to my niece and walk off happily.

I also want to see the burial plots that are currently in the process of being turned over to my mother. Supposedly they're in the best part of the nicest cemetery in the county. My grandparents were big spenders when they were alive.

D:

I also wanna see them.

I've never met them, they died when my mom was 17.

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I'm finally going to get some good driving time in tomorrow. It's gonna be at Fairhaven Memorial Park. XD I want to show my dad the mausoleum since we were talking about the one in Burlington, NC.

I should have some nice exterior shots of it too. XD I need to spiffy up my skillz.