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in my mind
its not the best
im feeling better
less and less
trapped in a tomb
theres no going back
my mind is a cage
there is no escape

sometimes its easier to turn and run away
then to stay behind and try to face the pain
trying to make sense of the past
when everythings to loose and theres nothing to gain

looking from the outside
everything seems fine
but once past the face
my mind is confined
darkness comes
and shadows follow
but instead of fear
i feel hollow
emotionless and empty
alone and betrayed
i'm suppose to feel feelings
i'm feeling there delayed

sometimes its easier to turn and run away
then to stay behind and try to face the pain
trying to make sense of the past
when everythings to loose and theres nothing to gain

i'm trapped in between
two impossible things
the land in my mind
that noone believes
and the "real" one outside
i dont want to face
i'm drowning in darkness
i just want to hide
memories come flooding back
that i would rather forget
i'm feeling i should try to face them
and yet,

sometimes its easier to turan and run away
then to stay behind and try to face the pain
trying to make sense of the past
when everythings to loose and theres nothing to gain

trapped in a cycle
its never ending
to anyone whos listening
this message i am sending
do the right thing
you know what it is
dont suffer in silence
speak out and be heard