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well its been a long times since i posted in here...
well what to say?
halloween of 2005 was very odd for me. for the longest time i had liked one of my male friends alot but i didn't want to jepordize our existing freindship so i never confessed my feelings to him. but there we were, over at another friends house playing burnout when he suddenly started using my shoulder as a headrest. i was scared. here i was all my conflicting feelings coming together but that i managed to summon up the courage to ask him one question.
"do you like me?"
all he said was yes and then we hugged. needless to say our other freinds were shoked and very alarmed
after that we've become boyfreind and girlfreind but its all so wierd to me. i mean i really like him but...I worry about him so much...
that and i'm not sure of his feelings. i know he had another girlfreind in the past that burned him badly and all i want is for him to be happy. I have no clue what to do but i really like him.
*sigh* i feel like i'm being pulled in two and the stress is starting to show.
lately i've been snapping at everyone except him....
I love him so much but yet i feel as if theres a distance growing between us...
god i don't know what to do....
I mean he's the best guy ever and really my first love so i've never played this game before.
its so strange latelty i worry about my appearances more and more.
i feel as if the distance is growing between us and yet with i'm with him i can barely contain myself from grabbing him and dragging him off to a .... less populated area.
ahhh. my heart so fickle and fragile.....