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Well....today I was SUPPOSSED to go over to Ricky' mom's house.....but apparently his mom couldn't pick me up.....we'll see.... >.> I really have a hard time beleiving that for some reason....mostly becuase whenever he says he "can't" he's normally hanging out with his friends and is just avoiding me even though he INVITED me earlier in the week..... blah. He does this quite often. ********. All of my friends do this basically. =x So I sat at home...by myself....doing nothing.... i don't even feel like doing anything anymore.....rawr. I haven't even been myself lately. For the past month or so I've been so..... I dunno...depressed maybe? Or irritable.... I can't quite describe... I'm not really "depressed" or anyhthing but it's something like that..... it's probably me just being lonely. i've been craving attention, but...everytime someone gives it to me..it's not the attention I want...or need. I actually cry for no reason. It's so stupid. >< I don't know why I cried, but I did. I shouldn't care about something as stupid as this. I normally don't. I read an article today...this girl's family abused her mentally and physically so she ran away...she then became a prostitute. She was only 13. >< She said she was with her pimp becuase she thought "he cared for her". She had sex becuase she thought she felt loved.... then I started thinking....I'm so ******** stupid. I was just her less then years ago.... I screwed up. =x I did some stupid stuff to feel loved. And I started thinking about doing it again. Of course, I know it doesn't mean anyone cares or anything. I wish...I could just not care and get over it like I normally do. ><*sigh* well alright..enough "sentimentality"

Oomph! is an awesome German band. They're old, but good. My dog peed on me today. -_-'.... Katie picked her up (the dog was facing me though) and she just started peeing.....(she can't control herself when she gets excited) blar.....as if that wasn't bad enough....I now have a hole in my favourite orange skirt. I have to start my stupid tem paper.... damnit. >< Well I'm off for now...