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You should never go to bed angry. You'll end up laying awake all night, have frustrating dreams, and wake up feeling aweful. It's good to just sit down and clear your mind of the things that make you mad. Read a book, watch TV, find something that'll take your mind off of it so that you'll be able to sleep that night.
Of course, I've gone to bed angry quite a few times, and I'll usually end up reading a book just to take my mind off of what it is that is upsetting me. But it's more likely that I'll go to bed, not be able to go to sleep, and then think about the things that upset me. Lately, this one things has been bothering me a lot.
It's a student teacher in my Achieve class. I understand that she is learning, and I accept that. She's trying to figure out what's best to do to help a class of kids learn thier subject. She'll need to try things, and she's going to mess up every once in a while. But we're good kids, and we'll bounce back. But she's supposed to realize what it is she's doing wrong, and fix it. She has assigned us this project, and the general idea is very good for that class. We have to go out and find someone that is successful, and interview them about how they got to where they are now, things they regret, things they are proud of, and so on. It's a good idea, since the class is all about being successful.
It's hard to botch up a project like that with a group of kids like us. We're in that class because our performance doesn't match up with our work habits, or because we have great work habits but do poorly on tests--kids with a lot of potential and need help to realize it. We listen and we work, and we're just generally trying hard. How could anything go wrong?
But, oh dear. She confused us. And when we tried to ask questions like we've been taught to do, she cuts us off in the middle and explains what she thinks is the right answer. She repeats herself a lot because of this. So she get frustrated with us--she's told us this a dozen times, why aren't we listening? And we get frustrated with her--We know that already, why won't she listen? And eventually, you could physically see the kids in the class giving up. Just deciding not to do the project.
That's why we're in this class. Because we give up too easily, if we don't want to do it we don't do it. We're supposed to be taught to do it whether you want to or not, it may just benefit you. Keep trying, work hard, give it your all, all of those slogans. And she let us slip back into an old habit.
I'm still not sure if I really want to do it. For the longest time I was one of those kids that decided they weren't going to do it... I was also considering making up a fake interview. Especially since I had the toughest time trying to get past the first part: deciding who I was going to interview. I eventually decided that I was going to interview my Girl Scout Troup leader--She offered, and she's pretty successful. What more do I need?
Ugh. I don't know where I'm going with this. I could just keep complaining untill the cows come home. But I'll end on this:
Why do people always critisize me on the things I don't want to be critisized on, and just nod and smile when I do want to be critisized? Why do so many people feel the need to act fake and nice to me, when I'd be more accpeting of them if they just acted normal, even mean? I feel as though everyone's getting the wrong idea about me; trying to be sensitive when I really don't care, and being harsh when I need thier sympathy. And what can I do to fix this?
 Leamony · Mon Mar 13, 2006 @ 06:39am · 2 Comments |
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