iv'e decided to get back on the internet just to make a little journal thingie!!
ninja cry
i just feel so lost!!...i don't even know what to do anymore!! question
why do i feel this way?!...oH!!...maybe it's because i've lost the best thing that's ever happened to me!!! ninja cry ...i just wish that she'd believe me!!...but i guess her thinking i didn't trust her made her not trust me...at all!!...i don't know...was there something aloof?...was there something that i did, something i didn't do?...did i try too hard to show my feelings?...did i not try hard enough?...i want to know the answers...but it seems they're just to distant!!...what should i do?...God, please help me!!!?
i've promised myself....i would never give up on her!!...even if it kills me!!
and i won't give up!!...i'd rather burn in hell than to give up the thing i love the most!!
i just wish that she realized that things like that happen in a relationship...and you just can't think that you should "break up" everytime that there is an arguement!!...i mean...it is a "relationship"!!!...you get into arguements, and if you realize how stupid the arguement is then you make up and forget about it!!
"there is so much that i want to say!!...but in all the clutter and hopelessness i feel that belief is just too far away"-quote from one of my songs!!
i hate longing...but i guess it'll be that way for a while...unless i can bring back hope!!...i'll pray to God that everything will be okay!!
some advice: don't ever give up on anything, especially on something you love!!
 hagakurepinoy · Mon Mar 13, 2006 @ 01:59pm · 0 Comments |
