* sits up on a Hill in deep thought on weather to stay here or not*.... I have been gone for a Long time and no one has been here.... I could always explore and stay with my mom... not much anywhere to go.... * sighs* I dunno.... all I know is this family is torn apart.... Nothing feels the same anymore.... not anywhere like before. I Know people have other things in the real world to do. and that is more importantthan anything eles. It woul;d not hurt to atleast have a quick time to drop in and say hi now and then when one has the time. .... Everyone is just fadding from here.... this place is feeling like a empty hole in the ground. a ground full of memmories in which all of us were there for each other. But now ... its a memmory stuck to the walls and the ground and the flowers that still bloom. just looking at the grass and the sky, the garden around. I can see the old times on how we all help each other and how we all had fun. Fun.... thats something thats been a thing of the past.... * one tear sheads* So many memmories.... even from the begining.... for me atleast....
That day after wounering the streets of gaia.... knowing my home for the first time on gaia called' The Fallen Angel" had blown up and not many lived. Finding a place known as the KOH, Kights of Honor. I appear on this place during a fight, a fight against the C.U.N.T.S. So many Different people then. We fought for the home. Sure I was in a way talked out of defeat, ran away like a coward. * kicks a Stone* I wounder if there are people who still look at me as that same coward....
Then Out of the blue... Not fully understanding why.... The leader of them came after me. Told me I should come back and fight still. How many times I felt that day, That I thought fighting was not me I .... was no better than any new person on gaia when it came to fighting. But there was just something there, the feel of hope,... someone on gaia believed in me in fighting. In a way I felt like I could still keep trying no matter what. No matter what anyone said I should keep trying. That person was Lord Tiger. My brother who I do not find out that he is my brother till almost a whole year later. After meeting Lord Tiger... I think I got to cofident in my self... to coocky. I guess I needed to be put in my place a lot. Then I come across of a lot of the fightersd and get to know them better. One of them I thought ... that for the longest time would be my enemey.... But Now I do not see that happening. donna... ehe In a way i ... guess we were almost the same when it came to fighting for something. Always trying to get the last word. The fight almost seemned like we were fighting ourselves. Trying to find some logic way that one of us was more right. But one day I ... I think I may have not sure said something wrong. Thats when lord tiger came in in a rage... upset about something. I figiured it was me... for more than one reason, but as one of the reason,... becuase I was the newbie of the place... I thought i may have upsetted someone and thought I should leave.
Even when I thought I should leave, I was called back by two people. Mostly and teh first two to see it. Lord Tiger and Donna. even after all that... I still felt welcomned to live here among them all. It was then Donna and I I guess made a truce and became the closest friends ever since then. I am happy that her and I became the greatest friends, cuz there are times where she is here... I feel like someone sticks up for me. Not like no one does... Just.. I duno... that feeling of being speacial. * smiles very little* But then things kept going. after a while we stopped being the KOH and went to being the TOK, Taveren of Kights. By then i am a High ranker , nort as high as Lord tiger but almost right below. After a few months in the TOK I talk to Ivory moons for a while here and there. slowly getting to know her I started to get flash back memmories.... not very nice ones but I did. later on I found out that ivory moons is accually my long lost mother. I thought I did not have one, but I am glad I was wrong. We as a slow growing family came across more people. Kyro, Hax, Halfix, many more to talk to. They be at my side along everyone one eles they knew. Happy moment indeed, everyone was carring and everyone was looking out for each other. This Happyness did not stay this way for long. Then we had fights against the Prince of Ice and his people. The prince was Seta. There were fights I think almost on a daily bases. In a way we kept our abillity to keep fighting but there were times where we took it to far. Thinking about it now, I almost want to smile or cry more. That took a Lot of pain and blood to go threw it. Some of us almost kept dieing on a daily bases, but in some way did not matter, becuase someone who was close to that person always knew how to bring back the dead. After what seemned this clash of elements fight died, other things happened. Visited by people who would just come in to annoy. those days really were not all that fun. being annoyed was not fun. After that became happyer moments. Here and there people were getting married. Ya know everyone I talk to now is married almost. Cept me... I am not married and according to mom ( Ivory moons) i am the Oldest of the siblings. How sad is that, the oldest is not married. thou knowing I was the oldest.... came more responibilities. Some which i may have over done as a Older sister. Over done my role and responsibilities.
As Siblingas and family, have always had our fights and sparing and arguing here and there. And now after my mom ( ivory Moon) has gone threw a lot.... its almost like everyone eles has as well,., Fighting still comes and goes... But now ... the present speaks. By now I have meet my other brother liger and his wife. I have meet hawk, who has changed his name more than once if not his outfit. So manuy... and new ones slowly come into the family. Fights here and there. Slowly these fights are just tearing the family apart is all I see. the pain we thought we left behind has only been growing. Slowly but surely. Now the pain is soo much to beare, Its just.... To much. Now I think slowly I am lossing people I care for and know... Its been a while since I have talked to my brothers... Its been a while since I seen Serena and Kurio. Its been a while since seeing anyone. Everyone..... .all gone.... This place no longer has that fight, that sprit, that family feel anymore. its almost all gone.... every last bit of it. just Gone... makes me cry so hard. Andf if everyone is gone.... why haven't i left.... Why do I come here anymore..... if everyone is gone.... and I am left alone.... maybe ... this place is faceing the same fate as " the Fallen Angel" everyone disappears... and the place dies a pain and sarrow fate. * Looks around tears in my eyes* .... Its all gone.... all of it... . how many would still talk to me if I left. And if I do leave..... how many would try and stop me this time.... this time maybe the last time.... I dunno anymore...... cry cry
and Now I am trying to re build the Lost Fox Den for the THIRD time...... Nothing is working any more...... is it just me?
That day after wounering the streets of gaia.... knowing my home for the first time on gaia called' The Fallen Angel" had blown up and not many lived. Finding a place known as the KOH, Kights of Honor. I appear on this place during a fight, a fight against the C.U.N.T.S. So many Different people then. We fought for the home. Sure I was in a way talked out of defeat, ran away like a coward. * kicks a Stone* I wounder if there are people who still look at me as that same coward....
Then Out of the blue... Not fully understanding why.... The leader of them came after me. Told me I should come back and fight still. How many times I felt that day, That I thought fighting was not me I .... was no better than any new person on gaia when it came to fighting. But there was just something there, the feel of hope,... someone on gaia believed in me in fighting. In a way I felt like I could still keep trying no matter what. No matter what anyone said I should keep trying. That person was Lord Tiger. My brother who I do not find out that he is my brother till almost a whole year later. After meeting Lord Tiger... I think I got to cofident in my self... to coocky. I guess I needed to be put in my place a lot. Then I come across of a lot of the fightersd and get to know them better. One of them I thought ... that for the longest time would be my enemey.... But Now I do not see that happening. donna... ehe In a way i ... guess we were almost the same when it came to fighting for something. Always trying to get the last word. The fight almost seemned like we were fighting ourselves. Trying to find some logic way that one of us was more right. But one day I ... I think I may have not sure said something wrong. Thats when lord tiger came in in a rage... upset about something. I figiured it was me... for more than one reason, but as one of the reason,... becuase I was the newbie of the place... I thought i may have upsetted someone and thought I should leave.
Even when I thought I should leave, I was called back by two people. Mostly and teh first two to see it. Lord Tiger and Donna. even after all that... I still felt welcomned to live here among them all. It was then Donna and I I guess made a truce and became the closest friends ever since then. I am happy that her and I became the greatest friends, cuz there are times where she is here... I feel like someone sticks up for me. Not like no one does... Just.. I duno... that feeling of being speacial. * smiles very little* But then things kept going. after a while we stopped being the KOH and went to being the TOK, Taveren of Kights. By then i am a High ranker , nort as high as Lord tiger but almost right below. After a few months in the TOK I talk to Ivory moons for a while here and there. slowly getting to know her I started to get flash back memmories.... not very nice ones but I did. later on I found out that ivory moons is accually my long lost mother. I thought I did not have one, but I am glad I was wrong. We as a slow growing family came across more people. Kyro, Hax, Halfix, many more to talk to. They be at my side along everyone one eles they knew. Happy moment indeed, everyone was carring and everyone was looking out for each other. This Happyness did not stay this way for long. Then we had fights against the Prince of Ice and his people. The prince was Seta. There were fights I think almost on a daily bases. In a way we kept our abillity to keep fighting but there were times where we took it to far. Thinking about it now, I almost want to smile or cry more. That took a Lot of pain and blood to go threw it. Some of us almost kept dieing on a daily bases, but in some way did not matter, becuase someone who was close to that person always knew how to bring back the dead. After what seemned this clash of elements fight died, other things happened. Visited by people who would just come in to annoy. those days really were not all that fun. being annoyed was not fun. After that became happyer moments. Here and there people were getting married. Ya know everyone I talk to now is married almost. Cept me... I am not married and according to mom ( Ivory moons) i am the Oldest of the siblings. How sad is that, the oldest is not married. thou knowing I was the oldest.... came more responibilities. Some which i may have over done as a Older sister. Over done my role and responsibilities.
As Siblingas and family, have always had our fights and sparing and arguing here and there. And now after my mom ( ivory Moon) has gone threw a lot.... its almost like everyone eles has as well,., Fighting still comes and goes... But now ... the present speaks. By now I have meet my other brother liger and his wife. I have meet hawk, who has changed his name more than once if not his outfit. So manuy... and new ones slowly come into the family. Fights here and there. Slowly these fights are just tearing the family apart is all I see. the pain we thought we left behind has only been growing. Slowly but surely. Now the pain is soo much to beare, Its just.... To much. Now I think slowly I am lossing people I care for and know... Its been a while since I have talked to my brothers... Its been a while since I seen Serena and Kurio. Its been a while since seeing anyone. Everyone..... .all gone.... This place no longer has that fight, that sprit, that family feel anymore. its almost all gone.... every last bit of it. just Gone... makes me cry so hard. Andf if everyone is gone.... why haven't i left.... Why do I come here anymore..... if everyone is gone.... and I am left alone.... maybe ... this place is faceing the same fate as " the Fallen Angel" everyone disappears... and the place dies a pain and sarrow fate. * Looks around tears in my eyes* .... Its all gone.... all of it... . how many would still talk to me if I left. And if I do leave..... how many would try and stop me this time.... this time maybe the last time.... I dunno anymore...... cry cry
and Now I am trying to re build the Lost Fox Den for the THIRD time...... Nothing is working any more...... is it just me?
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