Terrible News
I don't know how to say this... But...Lately, my parents haven't been getting along all that well ever since my mom changed. She acts like a teenager now and stays on the computer a lot. She cares more about her own social life than her family. I mean, I asked if we could go do something as a family and she said we don't have any money...but she thinks we have the money for her to go off with her friends. Not cool. And it gets worse. A few days ago was the worst day of my life. I came home to find out my sister was in a car accident and could have died, but survived with only a few minor scratches. And then comes the worst part. While speaking with my sister, I find out that my mom had told my dad that she wanted a divorce. This came as a total shock, so I kind of was depressed the whole day... I literally cried three times that day...and that's shocking since I usually never cry. So yeah... Yesterday, I come to find out that they're going to see a marriage counselor and my dad gives me the news. The counselor literally said it was up to my mother to decide whether to stay or leave. Now comes today, D-day. I walked in the house and saw the grim look upon my parent's faces and immediately knew what had happened. I ask them what's wrong, but they don't say anything. They just say that we're going to have a family meeting later today. Great. So, I go off to the computer room and my parents go to their bedroom to talk. Later that day, my dad tells me and confirms my fears. My mom chose divorce. I really don't know how to feel about this... But, I do feel bad for my dad. He literally came in the computer room where I was at and cried on my shoulder. I couldn't help but cry along with him... It's hurting him the worst since he's in love with my mother and she's not... After that, we talk a little and he tells me her plans. He said that she wants to continue living in our house together until we can sell it... I told my dad flat out straight that I don't want her to live with us. I can't take all of this drama and heartbreak. I just wanted her gone. He didn't say anything and just left. I know that was harsh, but it's truly how I feel. I don't want to move. I don't want to sell the house. I don't want this divorce, but my mother is going to force it upon us one way or another. So, yeah... I think I might want to stay with my grandma for a while until things calm down. I just can't take this anymore... And the finally the last bit of news happened only a few minutes ago I was in here starting on this journal when my dad popped in. He told me that he and my mom were going to try to save their marriage, but I know otherwise. I told him that it's not use and that mom just isn't going to truly try. She's bullheaded. When she has something set on her mind, no one can stop her. I just wish she would quit dragging up false hopes. I'm sick of being hopeful when every time there is hope, it's yanked right from our very hands... I really need to get away from this place...
I don't know how to say this... But...Lately, my parents haven't been getting along all that well ever since my mom changed. She acts like a teenager now and stays on the computer a lot. She cares more about her own social life than her family. I mean, I asked if we could go do something as a family and she said we don't have any money...but she thinks we have the money for her to go off with her friends. Not cool. And it gets worse. A few days ago was the worst day of my life. I came home to find out my sister was in a car accident and could have died, but survived with only a few minor scratches. And then comes the worst part. While speaking with my sister, I find out that my mom had told my dad that she wanted a divorce. This came as a total shock, so I kind of was depressed the whole day... I literally cried three times that day...and that's shocking since I usually never cry. So yeah... Yesterday, I come to find out that they're going to see a marriage counselor and my dad gives me the news. The counselor literally said it was up to my mother to decide whether to stay or leave. Now comes today, D-day. I walked in the house and saw the grim look upon my parent's faces and immediately knew what had happened. I ask them what's wrong, but they don't say anything. They just say that we're going to have a family meeting later today. Great. So, I go off to the computer room and my parents go to their bedroom to talk. Later that day, my dad tells me and confirms my fears. My mom chose divorce. I really don't know how to feel about this... But, I do feel bad for my dad. He literally came in the computer room where I was at and cried on my shoulder. I couldn't help but cry along with him... It's hurting him the worst since he's in love with my mother and she's not... After that, we talk a little and he tells me her plans. He said that she wants to continue living in our house together until we can sell it... I told my dad flat out straight that I don't want her to live with us. I can't take all of this drama and heartbreak. I just wanted her gone. He didn't say anything and just left. I know that was harsh, but it's truly how I feel. I don't want to move. I don't want to sell the house. I don't want this divorce, but my mother is going to force it upon us one way or another. So, yeah... I think I might want to stay with my grandma for a while until things calm down. I just can't take this anymore... And the finally the last bit of news happened only a few minutes ago I was in here starting on this journal when my dad popped in. He told me that he and my mom were going to try to save their marriage, but I know otherwise. I told him that it's not use and that mom just isn't going to truly try. She's bullheaded. When she has something set on her mind, no one can stop her. I just wish she would quit dragging up false hopes. I'm sick of being hopeful when every time there is hope, it's yanked right from our very hands... I really need to get away from this place...
