im getting even more heartbroken when the days go by every second... every min... and every hour it gets worse... instead of feeling better... tomorrow is valentines day but me cedric r not going to be with ezch other like we were last year... he gave me the best valentines day... but thats not happening this year.
everyone is starting to think that its ok to be rude to me. saying that i may never know if cedric did that to get away. WHAT THE ********!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he would never do that s**t to get away. i dont give a ******** about what others think of my bf. and idc if anyone is getting annoyed with me because of cedric being in jail. they have to get the ******** over it i cant help it i love him so GOD DAMN MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! heart
i have a feeling that i will never see him again. and that my mom blocked the ploice station calls from me just because it costs $10.00 and she doesnt give a ******** if i want to talk to him or not. mad
which is im starting to think that both of them r true... that both of those r going to happen. and people r tellling me that its best for him to be in jail that we need some time away.yeah right we spend time away from each other like all the time... i barely got to see him...and now he is away from me for a long time and i cant stand it...
i have found out that if someone tries to cheer me up it wont work... my heart is so broken now that no one will be able to heal it... the only way is when cedric gets out and i see him again... so that i can hug him again... i miss him so much. and if u guys r tired of me being a whinny baby about it or that im over reacting then dont say anything cause im not. not to sound rude or anything but i cant stand this. and to make it worse people r saying s**t to me thats not even true! so im not happy. NOT ONE SINGLE BIT! im falling apart right now so everyone can just get the ******** over it and kiss my a** because im not going to deal with people who r just going to be compelt assholes to me. mad
now for the people who want to be nice to me (even tho no one gives a ******** to read my s**t) then u can write to me... if u feel the same pain then write to me who knows maybe both of our loved ones get out on the same day... that would be awsome... and sorry but im losing my mind here. my mind is turning evil right now twisted
and i mean literally my mind is turning evil. there is some evil s**t going thro my mind right now.
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This is my first time playing this game. its ok its just kind of hard to find some friends. but if anyone is reading this im a very nice person also very shy but i can get over my shyness very fast. i do have a bf so im not single. so guys dont try to ask me out cause my bf will get really pissed off if someone is trying to ask me out. and trust me he is very scary when he is pissed off. trust me i witness it before not a pretty site lol. but whoever this is that is reading if this if anyone is i hope so than plz think about being my friend. if u want to learn more about me i will be more than happy to answer some question that some of u might want to ask me. but i wont be on that much only on weekends. well i g2g so that i can try this game out and hopefully find more friends i only have one right now. but i guess that one is better than nothing huh?
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