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I hope when I get a new girlfriend that she doesn't put on a persona everyday. I want to love someone for who they are and if you can't trust someone enough to be yourself around them then what's the point? That's why it hurts so much to hear her say those things...I feel like I was nothing but a game to her. I've never loved someone as much as I loved her yet I feel like the romance was all one sided towards the end. Was the reason she was so distant because she was thinking about him? Was it something I did? I just don't know...I want to be happy and move on and find someone else. And I think I have found someone but would she love me for me? Does she even find me attractive? Would I get hurt again...I can't go through this for a third time. My ex told me once that she'd never hurt me again...yet she broke up with me over the phone and went with another guy and is now carrying his child. She said she'd call me the next day after we broke up...but I never heard from her again. She has no idea how that made me feel...how her getting pregnant with the guy she still says she didn't cheat on me with makes me feel...I'm so depressed I don't know if I can do this anymore. Nothing has been going right lately...I don't think I can do this anymore. But I will try on the off chance God throws me a break. But if things don't get better soon then I just don't know...I'm so very tired.