I didn't realize when I made my decision to stay near you that it would hurt this much. I knew it would hurt, and I knew I'd be miserable...but I didn't expect it to be nearly torture.
How am I supposed to be near you without loving you? I love everything about you, and yet I hate it at the same time, because everything you do and everything you are is a constant reminder that I can't have you - that you're just out of my reach.
And yet I stay. I stay and I let you do this to me. I know it's unintentional on your part...but I love you. I don't want to lose you even more.
She understands because she's going through the same thing, only on a different level. They were together longer, and she still loves him, and he loves her...but she understands that he needs to see what else is out there and realize that what he's looking for is everything that she is. She doesn't want him to see other girls, but she knows that he has to...
I know that, too. I know that you need to see what it really is that you want. And yet, I'm still terrified that if I let go of you that much more, if I back away enough for other girls to move closer...I'm terrified that you'll find that what you want isn't what I am.
Because what I want is you.
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