yeah the depressed b***h am i.
i'm a big mess...i might fail the french class.tomorrow i have a test and i don't know anything.i have to write an essay in history and i just started (it's 11.30 am in here) and i also have to make a short analysis on a german poem and read 300 more pages for some of this days. I'l have another test paper in french and i didn't learn because i just had no time and i don't even know what to learn (my french teacher is hitler by the way).....and that's just school.
all my friends are ******** depressed,they suffer to much because of love and i am the one who is supposed to cheer them up and stop them from harming themselves(physic and/or psychic).
Besides that i'm feeling more lonely than ever.I can't even draw good in the last time,just craps. Do i like someone?idk...i'm pretty jealous when he talks to me about the girls he ******** i know they don't mean anything to him, but what hurts is that he is so far away and he will never be mine,not even if he will want to.i once had him but it just was to painful because he was so far. he doesn't care anymore. well,nobody does care anyway. if he reads this i'm pretty screwed.
i feel like i have no one to count on...so many things happened in the last time,but i just don;t want to write them,i just want to forget.
Every day,every little things makes me feel more and more lonely.As pathetic as it sounds,i just have to say it, i need to be loved,or at least liked,wanted i don;t even care if it's something superficial, i just need someone, someone who can be a little bit more than a friend. 'Accept the fact that one day you're going to die.' > Fightclub
I accept that,but i just don't want to die alone,and i know it will happen. All i want...is a short period in my life when i'm not alone.Am i asking to much?
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