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So as it says.. I am lamenting over a past love.... One i clearly didnt get over so quickly.... since i am still feeling the pain of losing her........ She was my world.... but she trashed it untimely by cheating on me......... So why do i need her so? What is the new pain?... I miss my old friend my closest dearest friend.... whom i fear has died within her. It pains me to think i have lost my friend..... I torture myself by thinking of her.. Wondering if she thinks of me... if she wants to talk to me.. or even see me....... *shakes head*

I miss my friend... but she is lost to me...... so why do i hold onto the hope that maybe... just maybe... she and i could still be friends.. of long ago past?..... I'm only fooling myself... really...... aren't I..... I never knew the person she became... or was... she played me for a fool.. and i should just move on... even though... try as i might..... I simply.. cannot.. I cannot stop thinking and hoping that maybe..... one day... we will be friends again............. In a long away future.......