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(a bit darker than usual)
I hear claps from my friends as I finish my laps around the track but I think "Are they clapping for real or fake" I don't know anymore who my true friends are but I do know who my "friends" are. People say I'm so nice and pretty but are they serious when they say it or are they like the guys who taunt me by saying"Taylor so and so wants to go out with you!" In a very big sarcastic tone I ignore them as though no one's there but I can feel a crack in my heart and a note on the back of my head saying "I am a fool to believe anybody really cared about me". I always feel as though I'm unimporant in my school and that the only friends I have are the teachers and my family but no one else. Why can't my so called friends see that I'm in trouble and stressed out? Is it because they don't care to notice or they don't care about me?Either way it makes me sure I don't have any true friends.