Today's the day I finally did it. I drank the damned potion that would revert me back to a human. I thought it would be grand and I wouldn't have to worry about all these people thinking I'm some sexy vampire that likes to party. Disgusting. However the only thing that I find relieving is that I no longer find blood appetizing. The loss of strength, sight, and predatory senses is a unpleasing. I constantly feel paranoid because I can no longer sense if someone is at my back. I also saw a vampire I used to know. I couldn't remember his name but he recognized me, and looked me over with disdain. Like I had betrayed him. It wasn't like I was part of his clan. I belonged to no one. Becoming a human again....I feel like an outsider. Like I should belong to some group, some band of friends, but I don't. I no longer belong, and I'm worried that I made the wrong decision.
*sigh* What am I to do if this continues on? Will I forever be submitted to a life of solitude as a vampire, or will I find something worth living for as a human? If I even live that long. I swear, there was someone following me today. I choose the worst time to grow a pair and turn back human.
Naratashi
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