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Wow I'm slightly devastated. I'm graduating in a few days from now and I don't know wat to do. EVERYTHING is going to change. I don't even have a job right now. i'm goin to some collage out there in the big world and getting a life. That's a bit much for me considering I don't even leave the house much. WOW. I don't think anyone reads these nonsensical journal entrees any way. I feel so alone. so very alone. all alone. left so far behind. Hated and ignored, loved but still hated. I really don't know how to describe this feeling. It's like only yesterday I was encased in warmth and affection. And that very warmth has turned to regret and denial. Like it was more then a good-bye. It was like a terrible shut-down for everything you ever believed in. Like a stomp and terror upon all that dwell innocent inside. Like everything is all gone and really you don't know how to handle it. It's such a terrible feeling that it makes me feel alone very alone. Like a cold winter storm in Alaska i'm hidden bellow the snow. Under the ice and forgotten lakes. Alone and some what dare I say abandoned. It makes me sick a little on the inside. worse then all the heart burn, head aches, colds, and body aches combined. Like a new ache a familiar ache but all to foreign to be real.

Yesterday,
All my troubles seemed so far away,
Now it looks as though they're here to stay,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Suddenly,
I'm not half the woman I used to be,
There's a shadow hanging over me,
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.

Why he
Had to go I don't know, he wouldn't say.
I said,
Something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday,
Love was such an easy game to play,
Now I need a place to hide away,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Why he
Had to go I don't know, he wouldn't say.
I said,
Something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday,
Love was such an easy game to play,
Now I need a place to hide away,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm.

~Yesterday by the Beatles
edited a bit by me to fit me