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Hey... smile I'm all confused. It feels like I should be in school...but it's spring break... sweatdrop
Well, I still haven't decided on a hair color. Some people have told me I should dye it hot pink, but I really don't want to dye it that color; candy pink is fine, but not hot pink. This other guy said I should dye it green and blue...that doesn't even really sound very cool though. I really wanted purple, but there is only dark purple, and I don't really want anything that dark...hmm...pink with purple tips...that would be kinda cool. But I don't think my mom feels like buying more than one bottle of hair dye, and she doesn't want to do more that one color in my hair... gonk I just don't know.
Yay, I'm excited for tuesday to come. Sora said that Kingdom hearts 2 is coming out then. I don't know if my mom will get it for me, but she might. *sigh* she probably won't. I'll end up getting it when the price is marked down to ten dollars or something. Oh well. I wish I could tell my mom why I really want it, but she either wouldn't understand, or she'd want to read this book a couple of friends and I are writing. See, I need to know how one guy acts so I can actually make him act right in the book. I don't want my mom to read it because I would be really embarrased.................... redface
Man, I'm really cold... I wish summer would come super bad. I want to go up north to my grandma and grandpa's house so we can ride on their quad and got to the beach and Okyok falls and swim and stuff. I want to bring atleast one of my friends too, and my cousin. ^^ My cousin really wants to go there too. I hope Sora does too, cuz I really liked it the last time she came with us. ^^ You know what they say, the more the merrier. 3nodding
I'm thinking for my birthday this summer, I'll invite my friends to come with my dad and I on his boat and go swimming and fishing and stuff. The only problem is, I don't think all of my friends will go swimming, so they'll just sit there and roast and get sun burned and won't have any fun. crying I just don't don't know what to do for my birthday, that will make everyone happy that I want to invite. sad I was gonna take a couple of my friends to florida, but not all of them like it there either, plus, I don't think my mom can afford it. sweatdrop So instead, my mom and I are just going to Chicago. That doesn't sound like the funnest thing in the world, but oh well. As long as the hotel has a pool, I'm happy. I'm kinda wondering if maybe I want to go to Florida instead...but I'm not sure if my mom feels like driving that far. Well, she might. But I don't think she wants to go to Florida as much as she wants to go to Chicago, so I'll just stick with that, plus, we'll get to see the blue man group. ^^ That'll be cool.
I've realized some things about myself this past week. One of them being that I feel like I'll can't and never will succeed in life. A lot of people have told me that when I was growing up, so it's just stuck there in my mind. I feel bad about that a lot, because I want so badly to be successful in life. I also have realized that I'm never truly happy about anything that includes myself. When I recieved a 94 on my solo on Saturday, I was happy, but not as happy as everyone thought I was. When my best friend got first chair in band, I was overjoyed for her. It's weird. Often, I feel like those things that I accomplish are only temporary, or I just got lucky, and I'll do a lot worse next year.
Well, I'm outta here, see you space cowboy. cool