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About 1:30 AM this morning, I told the guy I've been seeing I love him.

But I didn't want to say it.

I wasn't ready. I wanted to keep that for myself a lot while longer. But he was pressuring me to know, so I just told him.

If you've kept up with these entries, you know the last one was about how we had just parted. If you know relationships, you know some of them don't really make much sense. You can say the same for him and I. We don't make much sense, we're all over the place.

I meant every syllable of it. He believed me. He's certainly not among the strong people that I know, but, ..I don't know. I guess I'm the crutch. Today we were comfortable and ourselves with each other like we were once, for a brief time. Jokes and playfulness, and we both agreed that we missed it. I am missing him at the moment, even though I'm texting him right now.

My best friend Scott is doing better. He's fixing some things his family is going through. I absolutely love that man. I honestly couldn't ever stop. How he is with his family is so damned beautiful. Ugh, I really got so fortunate to have this guy in my life, knowing who I am. Amazing to no end. Everyday he makes life feel like it's alright for someone.

Other than that... Nothing really. I'm just making plans with people. So, today is alright. I feel like it's alright. How is your day?

Bye for now.