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I just realized not only do I have sleeping problems, but I also read things that I shouldn't. I really mean it, everything goes black and I think "What am I doing?".
The sad thing is I can't stop.

Reading is my drug, even the most horrible and the sickening. I guess its a ugly side. Just thinking that someone's word can get into your blood-flow and into your brain sounds like so much fun! However, some things I just shouldn't. Mostly when I don't sleep. You start thinking about things and the world starts to spin.

The sad thing is I can't stop.
I like the feeling of reading things that can drive the mind mad. It gives me ideas for personalities. Lefts say.. A delusional girl. I start thinking of how she may speak and act, and what she sees. I read and get more info. Maybe thats wrong with me?

I read things I shouldn't read.
Oh but I love how I can be me.
Don't you too get that thrill?
That being a bit insane is just fine?

The sad thing is..
I just can't stop.


Look at it this way. I draw and read. I make banners for people and a lot (not really) of other things. I too want to write. I want to be able to withstand harsh times and claim them with my pen. (Or my fingers..) I can write poetry without any care in the world! Everything is brilliant and happy! Flowers bloom from out of the page!



But why is no one happy?

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And that's what you get when I'm tired.
Night guys! ^_^

~Neghya