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I woke up this morning because I told my dad to wake me up earlier than usual...I was thinking about what you told me last night..About a lot of things. I told you to not talk to your mom, but you HAD to do that. Why'd you talk to her Maiii? You shoulda just stayed in Hawaii. If your going to Cali that's fine. Don't try to come and visit me. I'm scared and I'm not ready for that...Like, I told you over the phone. What are you going to do? Kidnap me? Murder me? Rape me then throw me into a river? Expect us to meet up and "smash" or whatever the hell the word is today?


I don't know..I'm not like most guys that wants to lose it as soon as possible. My manhood is important to me and I don't plan on a woman taking it so soon..LOL. It's for someone special...That's why I facepalmed when you said that you were afraid I was going to "smash n dash" I'll "run and duck" but no way am I going to "smash n dash". It's for someone special...


I was roaming the forums..And I think I get why you want to be alone. I got one of the best answers. And I do feel that this is you..

"sounds like he wants to keep his options open and string you along. It's NEVER a good sign that a guy ( or the girl) wants to hide their relationship. Usually means they want to keep up the pretense of being single so that they can flirt or do whatever the hell they want."

Is that true or what? I'm sure it is and I'm not surprised.



You asked if I would wait...And I didn't know the answer at the time so I wasn't sure. You remember what I wrote to you? That little corny a** poem or whatever it was..? My heart beats for you and only you..But it can only take so much pain before it stops working..I told you that it sucks when people play little mindgames and your not the one pulling the strings..Nothing sucks more than that.



But you told me that we're just friends, always will be. So if I get hurt, it won't hurt as much as last time knowing that you only think of me as a friend, nothing more.


It'll take awhile for me to accept that..But it'll happen eventually..One way or the other..And I won't be surprised if you go with somebody else. It'll just save the butthurt. Lol. Your only messing around, nothing more and I should expect nothing more.


It's 7 in the morning and I got to be at my job at 8:15 am..I got to go get dressed. Might add on later...Gotta go.



Just came back from work at 12 in the afternoon..And I'm feeling really happy right now..I'm okay with us being friends. Glad I got that over quickly. I have two days off starting from right now. Got to get some Online assignments done and got to make a couple phone calls.


I want to talk to Mai right now.. xd

On the phone at least..I don't know why. Because I feel like it. razz

I'm so nervous to see if she's online that, I can't even eat..LOL. Fail.



It's whatever. What happens, happens. mrgreen