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Just like in the middle of everything Mina decides at the very least, it'd give Taby a distraction, so she just kind of leans down and whispers "I have a secret, Taby... I'm going to have a baby." And Taby would kinda look up at her with wide eyes for a second and then be like "Oh Gawd..." and her eyes would widen and she's start crying again and cover her mouth to try to stop but the thought of having a baby by that sicko is just too hard to bare! Mina would understand completely why Taby reacted that way. She'd just hold Taby tighter, stroking her hair and shushing her and waiting until she'd calmed down a little before speaking. "I know you're terrified and you feel like your stomach is rotten. I know you don't know what to say or think or do. But try thinking about something that... that makes the pain hurt less. For me it's thinking about my baby. Maybe for you it's... it's Greg? You still love him don't you?" Mina doesn't know exactly what has happened, but she sees more similarities then she'd like to I imagine so she'd be able to guess the general idea of what went on without Taby having to say anything. Probably assuming this by her words, Taby would shake her head, starting to cry all over again but much less sobbing now so she'd be able to speak through her tears. "Greg hates me. I told him what happened to me, Mina. I'm filthy, dirty trash. How could he want me now? He doesn't. he doesn't want me. I disgust him. I disgust myself. This feeling.... no matter how much I scrub it won't wash away!" Mina would stroke her hair a little and just be like "Did he SAY that? Did he actually say that, Taby?" Again she'd shake her head, her sobs having turned into shuddered breaths and hiccups now. "He didn't say anything. It was good enough." Mina would bite her lip a little and just be like "What DID he say?" "Nothing. He sat there and stared at me like I was suddenly sick with some contagious deadly disease or something!" "Well... maybe he didn't mean it like that... You did just tell him you had been... been violated and everything... Maybe he was just in shock..." "-sigh- Maybe...but...Mina, if I could get away from me I would. How you're even sitting here talking to me is a mystery... Why would Greg want anything to do with me now? -folds her arms over Mina's lap and lays her head down- Why would anyone..." "-touches her hair- Because we love you. I do, Greg does, Jen, Kyle, MJ, Mitch, Cee... Everyone." "How do you do it, Mina? How are you and Andy always so happy....after everything that's happened..."
Miguel: Right, right, okay. Mina would sigh a little and just go "I don't know, Taby. It's something inside, I think... Like trust, only deeper... I... -licks lips and sighs- I feel better when I'm around Andy. When I'm around him, everything my husband did feels further away. Sometimes it doesn't even feel like it's a part of me at all. It hurts less when I'm with him. Do you feel like that with Greg?"8:28 PM
Cristina: Taby would sit up and frown, staring at the floor she's sitting on. Then she'd look up and frown deeper, like trying to figure out what Mina means and if that's indeed how she feels. Then she'd look back down at her knees and let out a breath, still frowning. "I...hmm... -looks up at Mina again- Mina, have you had sex with Andy?"8:34 PM
Cristina: (just said very straghtforward, like she's asking what color his eyes are. lol)8:34 PM
Miguel: -deep deep bright red blush- "Wh-What?!? No!!! Taby, no!! Of course I haven't!! Sex should be between a husband and his wife, nothing else..."8:36 PM
Miguel: And of course she's blushing because she and Andy haven't had sex, but they did have that night of intimacy where she learned what sex is SUPPOSED to feel like...8:36 PM
Cristina: ((What night?????)) "Hmm...-nods and looks back down at her knees- Well I've had sex with Greg. Lots of it. (again said like she's talking about the weather.) Before...everything... It's fun! Or at least...it was... It's different now... Scary. I don't...I mean I'm not... -looks up again- I'm scared of him, Mina... Never, not once in my entire life, even when he's about to hit me or throw me across the room, never once was I ever scared of Greg. Even when he hurt me it was...good... But now... -wipes wetness from her cheeks and eyes. not crying again just, kinda finally stopping, you know? lol- I don't really understand what you mean when you say Andy makes you feel better because...because when Greg touches me I just feel scared and my brain just...explodes! And all I can think about is what if this time Greg goes too far. What if this time is like last time. Like what (man's name) did.... And I don't want to feel like that but...I just do..."8:42 PM
Cristina: "But I need him. Even though I'm scared of him. It's scarier imagining being without him."8:45 PM
Cristina: (going to the store so switching to phone <3)8:48 PM
Miguel: ((Allie didn't tell you that either??? Ugh =_= At some point soon I think Andy and Mina sleep in the same bed, and they don't have sex or anything really close to it, but he touches her in all the right places so that she learns how sex is supposed to feel. That she's supposed to like it when a man lays his hand on her, and that when she closes her eyes it's not to hide her tears but to focus on the pleasure. Just something very intimate without being intimate, you know? We don't have to play it.)) Mina would listen and then be silent for a few seconds before speaking. "I was scared of Andy at first too. I didn't even want him to look at me. But then it started being less scary, less hurtful... It just takes time, Taby. You can't end everything with him now. Things will get better. You have to trust him. It starts with talking to him. Once I told Andy something of what it felt like to have my life, it was easier to be looked at and smiled at..."8:49 PM
ash joined the chat8:53 PM
ash: "but mina thats jus it. i dnt WANT to leave him. but the way he was looking at me.... im afraid HE doesnt want ME. andy WANTS u... greg, i jus dnt kno..."8:58 PM
Miguel: "That's why I said you should talk to him. Tell him that you're afraid he doesn't want you... Taby, when you walked out, he probably thought YOU were the one who didn't want anything to do with HIM... You need to talk to him about this... If you could tell him about (man's name) did to you, you can tell him anything..."9:00 PM
ash: "-nods- ok....i will.... -stands slowly n wipes at smeered makeup- mina? ........thank u....for listening.....for helping me......really, im not usually like this n im sure i look rediculous but thanks..."9:06 PM
Miguel: "-smiles- You don't look ridiculous, Taby. You look like a woman. You know what I mean? You look... older."9:09 PM
ash: "older? well thats no good! -wink n kisses cheek- see u latr mina!"9:17 PM
ash: then she'd go straight to the salon lol9:18 PM
Miguel: lol She would eventually go back to Greg right?9:19 PM
Miguel: I can see him sitting in the basement staring at one of his paintins, the brush in his hand, but his eyes totally dead and his countenance dark. It'd be the first time in his life he hasn't felt even an ounce of inspiration.9:19 PM
Miguel: If anything he'd be tempted to throw his work on the nearest fire.9:20 PM
ash: she'd come in sporting her croppd hair (she cut it to change her appearance with the excuse she wants to still look youngr lol). she'd knock on the open door at the top of the stairs (aftr opening the door herself lol) n she wuldnt say anythin. jus wait for him to come up or give her permission to come down9:23 PM
Miguel: I don't think he'd say anything honestly... he wouldn't know it was her and he might not even be consciously aware that someone knocked...9:24 PM
Miguel: He DID just learn that the love of his life was brutally raped and terrorized, meaning he failed to protect her, and to top it off he thinks she wants to leave him and now he's hating his artwork.9:25 PM
Miguel: He's not even angry at this point, he's like.... grief-stricken.9:25 PM
ash: maybe jen or mina happens to walk by n silently pushes her down thru the door encouraging her to go ahead. so she'd step down a couple steps. "greg?"9:25 PM
Miguel: Jen maybe? Mina would know about how to deal with being raped, but Jen would know all about talking to a boyfriend who you're about to lose. So let's make it Jen. Greg would blink and, not registering the owner of the voice, would just go "Yeah, yeah, I'm down here... What is it?" His voice quiet, but very flat.9:27 PM
Miguel: Very not-Greg.9:27 PM
ash: shed misundrstand that he doesnt wanna talk to her, but she'd take a deep breath anyway n decide if hes gonna leave her he might as well kno her side of it, so she presses on. anothr three steps down n "can...we talk?"9:31 PM
Miguel: ((Brb, taking a shower)) He'd turn around and, seeing it's her, he'd freeze, then look down, thinking that SHE was going to LEAVE him. He'd nod silently and go "If you want to..." really really quiet.9:32 PM
Cristina: ((If you still want to do that idea with Mina and Andy I don't mind.)) She'd close her eyes, take another deep breath, and walk the second half of the way, all the way down, shaky legs and all. Then she'd get to the floor aaaaand....have no idea what to say... She'd just go blank. Swallow thickly, another deep breath, and she'd suddenly wanna be anywhere else but there.... "Oh, you're working... You know, if you want to just talk later I can....gooo....? >.> "9:38 PM
Miguel: He'd look away from her, down at the floor, "You can stay if you want... Or you can go... I... -sigh and looks up at painting- I'm not working. I can't. And I don't want to make you do anything you don't... want to do..." his voice getting quieter and quieter as he goes on.9:51 PM
Cristina: "-swallows thickly- I... -a step forward- I want to talk about...earlier today...what happened..."9:54 PM
Miguel: He'd stiffen, anticipting the killing blow, and then go "Okay... Shoot..."9:55 PM
Cristina: "-sigh- Okay...I don't know any other way to say this so I'm just going to say it... -shuts eyes tightly so she won't see his expression- Greg, you scared me."9:59 PM
Miguel: lol He'd tense and take a deep breath, waiting for the words that'll shatter him, and then when she says that he'll stop, blink, then turn around completely on the stool to face her with this slightly befuddled expression and just go "Wait, what?"10:00 PM
Cristina: She wouldn't open her eyes. "Okay. I said it. So...you probably want me to leave now right? So i'll just go... -starts turning to leave with her eyes still closed-"10:02 PM
Miguel: "Taby, hold it!" he'd stand up quickly and take a step towards her, "Taby, can you... can you stop assuming you know what's in my head? I (emphasis) don't know what's in my head, how can you?" The whole thing is spoken very quietly and still with a good deal of nervousness in his voice.10:05 PM
Miguel: He's afraid any little thing is going to set her off.10:05 PM
Cristina: She'd look up, you know the way people do when they're trying not to cry. In a very soft voice she'd say "Okay... No assuming. -deep breath- Would you like me to stay or go?"10:08 PM
Miguel: He'd give her this equally hurt look and go "I want you to know that I'm not him..."10:10 PM
Cristina: (She's still turned away from him so he wouldn't be able to see her expression from before....just saying ^_^;; ) "-nods- I know that."10:11 PM
Miguel: (Just cuz he can't see her expression doesn't mean he doesn't have the same one lol) He'd pause for a while and then go "... Do you...?"10:12 PM
Cristina: "-wipes at unfallen tears- Greg, why are you doing this?"10:16 PM
Miguel: -without skipping a beat, but still very quiet- "Because I don't want to lose you."10:17 PM
Cristina: -turns quickly, utterly shocked n whispers- "...you...dont?"10:18 PM
Miguel: -blinks- "Of course not... Why would I?.... -dawns on him- Oh... Oh, you thought... that because...."10:19 PM
Cristina: -hugs her chest self consciously and looks away, whispering- "No one would blame you..."10:21 PM
Miguel: "-shakes head firmly- That's not how I feel Taby... That's not even close to how I feel..."10:23 PM
Cristina: ".....-blinkblink-......Oh...."10:25 PM
Miguel: "..... -looks down awkwardly- Is that... is that how you.... feel?"10:26 PM
Cristina: She'd look at him like she can't believe he'd even think that. "No...why....why would I.... -sits down on the steps and puts her head in her hands- You're not dirty...tainted...trash.​.. You're not ugly, sick, used... You're... you're not..."10:34 PM
Cristina: (voice gets increasingly silent before just trailing off)10:34 PM
Miguel: He'd have this pained look on his face before slowly sitting down on the steps next to her, but far away enough that they aren't touching, and then he'd slowly reach out and touch her hand. "Taby..."10:37 PM
Cristina: She'd wipe at her tears (an excuse to move her hand away from his) but not bring her hands away from her face.10:40 PM
Miguel: "Taby... What do you want me to do?"10:41 PM
Cristina: "Nothing... -has already started crying- "10:45 PM
Miguel: He'd sit there for a few seconds, maybe a minute, before gently touching her again, on her shoulder.10:47 PM
Cristina: "Stop it, please. -pushes his hand away and stands up- Greg, I can't... You don't understand..."10:51 PM
Miguel: "Then... help me understand... =/ "10:54 PM
Cristina: "I... I... -sits down again- When I was there, Greg...the man... -sniffs and wipes eyes and forces herself to stop crying so she can look him in the eyes- I was tied to the heater thing there and...on that dirty mattress and... -deep breath- he held me down, even though I couldn't go anywhere. I held me by my throat until I stopped moving. He jerked me around, forced my legs open until it hurt so bad I screamed. Greg...he...he did everything you do...but then he didn't stop. No matter how much I screamed or begged he...(whispers) he just wouldn't stop. -wipes tears away again- (speaking normally again) I know you would never do that. I know. Really. But...when you touch me...my mind won't listen to my heart, and every part of me is convinced that a part of you coulld...you could be that way...and Greg, I'm terrified...."11:06 PM
Cristina changed name to Katie11:09 PM
Miguel: He'd listen through the whole thing, gritting his teeth and taking deep breaths at various parts, obviously thinkign that if the man weren't already dead he'd kill him himself. When she says she's terrified he'd look up at her with this hurt, but loving, look, then stand and put his hands in his pockets and not move towards her. "I can't say I know how it feels. It's never happened to me, so... But, my sister, Georgie... you remember her, my twin... We've got this thing, where we can... where we can feel what the other is feeling, even if we're miles and miles apart. And I imagine that if this ever happened to her, I'd feel it then. Taby, I... I-I don't think I'll ever be able to understand how you feel. But I understand that you need me here, with you... and that you do still love me... -slightly doubtful- Right?"11:11 PM
Katie: She'd nod, but not say anything, afraid he's somehow going to still break up with her. The whole "lets be friends" deal lol11:13 PM
Miguel: -releaved sigh- "Right... So I do understand that you need me and you love me, and God knows I love you too... I also understand that what we had can't be quite the same ever again... Taby, I... I do love you. Nothing is going to change that. And because I love you, I'm willing to do whatever you need me to so you can get your life back..."11:17 PM
Katie: "-nods half uncerntainly- O-okay...then... -another deep breath- I'm going to move into Jen's old bedroom. I know we had all agreed that we wouldn't touch anything in case they came back, but I talked to Jen and she said it was okay... I want you with me Greg...okay? But...I can't sleep at night...because everytime you move I jerk awake thinking that guy is back... I don't want you sleeping on the couch again so...I'm just going to sleep in there now... But I'll only be a wall away so...so if I have a nightmare or something...I can still go to you...right?"11:22 PM
Miguel: "-nods quickly-"11:23 PM
Katie: "-nods as well and brushes at her hair, like trying to put it behind her ears but it's almost too short lol- .....I'm sorry..."11:25 PM
Miguel: "Don't be..." -smiles a little- "I like your hair now... I mean... I have nothing to grab onto now, but it's nice. It suits you..."11:29 PM
Katie: "-half smile- The stylist said it would make me look younger... -short pause while she touches her hair and kinda plays with it then- You can...um...you could hug me...if you wanted to..." (kinda like letting her know she doesn't want to be treated like she's got some disease, she just wants to be able to get back on track as she feels comfortable, you know? lol ^_^;; )11:31 PM
Miguel: (Right =) Do you work tomorrow?) He'd smile a little and then wrap one arm around her gently, hugging her very very lightly. Innocently.11:33 PM
Katie: (unfortunately yes. I do. 11-5 probably. I REALLY don't wanna go!!! but bleh...) She'd wrap both arms around his chest and lie her head against his chest, closing her eyes and taking in a deep breath. "This is what Mina meant..."11:35 PM
Miguel: (Noooo!! =( ) He'd just go "Hmm?"11:35 PM
Katie: (I know right??? SUCKS! ESPECIALLY when you don't have texting. -sigh- ) She'd smile and whisper, "nevermind"11:36 PM
Miguel: lol Aww.... Cut scene? =)11:37 PM
Katie: lolol I can totally see Jen poking her head in maybe a little while after this and being like "Hey...you guys aren't killing each other down there....everything okay?" lol11:37 PM
Miguel: lol Oh, Jen xD11:38 PM
Katie: lol I know right? Hobbling around like six months pregnant and still causing trouble. xP