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it is gnawing on my heart and making me cold, the sunlight does little to lift my spirits, and i am slowly dying on the inside, i know of hate. and i don't like it. i am a creator, not a destroyer, i don't want to hate, but it's still eating away at me, i want to kill, a natural reaction for survival i guess, but i am not about to throw my life away for it, i'll just tuck it away and save it for another battle, i need new freinds. i don't need freinds. i am slowly but surly withdrawing from society. but i love the internet, you don't have to talk to anyone if you don't want to, and there is always music to further ruin my hearing with. yaya music, it draws back my emotions and lets me function through pain, i am so addicted to music, it's sad.
i guess it's just a stupid escape from a planet in pain. pain, ha! i don't know what pain is, i haven't felt pain, i've feal hate yes, but pain? and i feel love only in my dreams. at least for humans. ah, so much teen angst and wasting of words. i'm going to regret venting on the internet someday. at least on the internet noone
can force their opinions on me. i would type my sigh but it would look strange.