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Well, sleeping in the back seat of the car isn't all that much better than sleeping in the driver's seat. Too narrow, too short, and it slants. I wake up with a back ache, and my legs are so stiff and painful from not being able to stretch them.

I so wish I had a van. If you have to live in a vehicle, a cargo van is the way to go. It's roomy, and private, and not nearly as conspicuous as living in a car. You could even have a propane stove and cook food in one.

Unfortunately, a little research showed me that there's a big gap between the amount I could get for my car and the amount it would cost for a cargo van in good running condition. cry

You may be thinking, the ideal would be a camper! No, too conspicuous, and too expensive in terms of gas. I have to drive quite a bit - I move every few hours so as not to draw unwelcome attention. Also, campers, even small ones, are to big and hard to park. xd

Speaking of food, the food is boring. I can only buy stuff that requires no refrigeration or cooking. It's a pretty limited menu and I'm already very tired of all of it. I splurged last night and bought a burger at Jack in the Box, but I can't afford to do that often.

I'm bored in general. Next week I'm going to see if there's any places I can do volunteer work at, just to have something to do besides sit in my car and read.

I miss my cats. Some people might think cats are independant and not sociable like dogs, but my cats were very attentive. It was rare for there not to be at least one cat in my lap or next to me. I spent quite a bit of time playing with them, or brushing them, or talking and petting them. Life seems so empty without them.

My life seems just empty in general. I feel so detached, like I'm outside of the real world - rejected by society! Actually, I've always felt that way but it usually doesn't bother me, as I have so many hobbies to keep busy with, and frankly, I don't think that highly of society. Now, in the evening I sit in my car and watch other people walk by and I feel very alone.

I just miss my life. I hope I don't have to live like this too long, it could get very depressing.