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hey yall. lately ive been helping a lot of people with their problems or telling them what their doing wrong in their lives. i am a very compassionate person. i want to help people and i dont mind listening to their problems, trying to relate to them and show them their not alone, and then giving them advice and confidence. but no matter what i say, they always loose confidence in themselves and dont put forth the effort to fix their problems themselves and then turn right around and b***h to me again. i wanna say its not /my/ fault if /you/ dont try. i have my own problems and i face them head on. your problems should not become mine and therefor should be none of my concern. i cant fix your life for you. i cant do everything for you. im not your mother and your mother cant do the job either. you have to do it yourself.

and as far as family relationships are concerned, i have my own. my dad treats my sister and i differently then he treats our younger step-sister Kayla. hes nice to us but hes always fighting with her and doesn't treat her as nicely. sure she can be a major b***h some times towards me but i know she doesn't deserve to be treated that way. ive tried to tell him what he was doing wrong and i dont want to put up with it anymore and i dont want to be in this same house with him when hes fighting with Kay, but he goes and makes me feel guilty by telling me he thinks i dont love him anymore and i dont want to see him anymore. if i didnt love him i wouldnt care enough to tell him what hes doing wrong and try to help him, or go visit him, i wouldnt talk to him about my sexuality, i wouldnt tell him who im dating, i wouldnt tell him my deepest darkest secrets, i wouldnt even speak to him or call him my father if i didnt love him. every time i try to break up a fight between my dad and Kay, he tells me its not my business but it is cause im part of this family. and when he tell me to stay out, to me its like hes telling me he doesnt want me to be part of the family. i am his oldest daughter. the least he can do is listen to what i say. i had to witness enough of him and my mom fighting and them getting divorced was hard on me even though i was really young when they separated. i dont want him to do the same with my step-mom Kris. i do care about him and i want what is best for him and my step-family. and im not going to give up trying to help him

i actually hope you see this someday, Daddy.