I hate myself.
I try to do well, and my best is not enough for a passing grade. Right now I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. D:
If I am to pass math, I most likely have to get a B+ or higher on the final. I know myself better than anyone else and know that for me that is impossible to do. I'd have to eat, sleep and drink math constantly to get the grade - and I can't do that.
If I am to get a B in Biology, I need to get a 90 or higher on the final.
If I am to get a B or an A in Writing 1, I need to do well on my final essay.
For the rest of my classes, I need to get good marks on the homework if I am to get As in those.
What I am most worried about right now is my math class. I have to take 3 math classes before I can move on to transferable classes. I passed my first one with a C, I need to pass this one with a C as well in order to move on to the final class. If I fail this class, I need to take it again next fall, then that moves my 253 class to Spring. I'm going to have to take another semester of classes before I can transfer to a Cal State, and that semester will consist of math.
I hate math so much. No matter how hard I try, I can't get it. I've always had this problem. I don't see the need for higher math if you are not going to be dealing with it in your career choice.
...I wonder if they have algebra and geometry for non-majors. And I don't have the time to go to a tutor. The way I see it is, if I don't have time for myself, how can I make time for someone else?
I should be working on biology right now, however my brain is so fried I need to relax. I need to relax, I need to have fun, but I need to pass class.
Work isn't helping either. What a time to get more hours. He SHOULD HAVE given me more hours earlier in the semester, NOT THE ******** END WHEN I NEED TO STUDY. I wouldn't be so stressed if my weekends didn't have to much work in them. My fridays are gone so I can't relax.
I'm so tired it hurts. D:
I'll be estatic if I pass my math class. Jenifer told me that I shouldn't take a summer course with the way I've been lately. 6 weeks of a compressed course would have killed me.
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