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1/9/2014 , 4:14 p.m.

I ... almost shitted some serious brix last night. Her mother texted me! Yeah I was scared. Not only for me, but for her cause I knew that if she was texting me from Azalia's phone, then most likely she read through her previous texts.

I handled the conversation like a gentleman. Didn't show any signs of me being nervous; which was good. Weird thing was that after the conversation, my anger and dissapointment went down the drain just like that. Maybe it was because I didn't see that one coming. Besides, I have no control in Azalia's life. What she chooses to do is based on her. I have no power in stopping her.

Maybe my anger went away so quickly because I wanted to talk to someone about it. Strange that it was her mom; but it helped. ... I'm still a bit embarrased from her mom knowing about the whole , "sexting" situation. Right when she brought it up, it felt like my face got 10X's hotter. But in order to handle certain situations like that; have to be calm no matter what.

Her mom actually took me into consideration. Especially for us to be in an relationship once her birthday comes around. I'm honestly a bit happy about it. Maybe this was something I've been yearning to happen. For her mom or someone in her family to know about "Us" . ...I don't know if there's an "us". Does she even want us to be together. It messes with my head knowing that she still talks to Lynn. It really frustrated my mind. Had she really made up her mind? ... I don't know.

It's like what my dad tried to tell me about being in relationships. "No relationship is perfect. If you argue every once in a while...like uh, once a month, then you guys are fine. But if it's every damn day; its unhealthy and there's something in there that you need to fix in it." ... That had to be the only things he said to me that made sense. (LOL)

After I talked to Ms.Andrews, I've been thinking about my first impression to her. I actually want to meet her parents one day. Quite soon actually. ... Well when I get a full time job to gain money for plane tickets and gain full approval from her mother.

I'm thinking too much about it; but it's a good thing to do I guess... Have to remember to apologize once we talk again. Think I was a bit "too" harsh on her.