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Alone in the night, tears fall from my eyes like dimonds, and like the dreams that spark them, disapear into softness of my pillow.
And like the lingering tears on my bed, the cutting shards of memory are there through the day, demons of the night swaying power even in the sunlight!

The lies they wisper into my mind break me, and I cry again, memories of the dreams refreshed and strong, and my words against them feel so weak, how can I stand?

It's been so long since I've seen your face, I have little to do battle with against these demons, just a few memories from months ago, and the words you write on my screen. I return to these words, needing to know you've not forgotten me, needing to know you still give a dam. And when those words are absent, the wispers grown louder, drowning out my screams, trying to take me away, to where I truly am alone, and nobody can reach me.

Again and again, they flood my mind with pictures, images of what never was. I'm forced to watch again and again as the demon tears you down with words, cutting like a knife and mocking our friendship, while I'm caged inside, screaming to drown it out. Helplessly, I can only watch as you plead with me to stop this! You try to touch me, to embrace me, to stop the words flowing from my mouth, and I long for the stream of pain to end, to give you -my- words, not the words of hate placed there by demons, but words of love, of friendship, of companionship, that I long to see you again! But each night, as I close my eyes, the sadistic satire plays itself out, ending only when dawns light frees me from my chains, and my pillow accepts my silent sobbing, my only comfort the tiny gem of knowlage just beyond my grasp, telling me in a silent voice the truth, that the dreams are only lies.

This gem grows quieter and quieter as the days go on, and the only thing feeding it is your words....and between those words, are only darkness, where the demons scream in my mind, trying to take me away from you....

Please, don't let them take me....