Don't know what it is lately....but i just been feeling empty. I just can't take it anymore. It hurts. but i try and hide it from those i care about so no one worries. i hat worring ppl. I friend said the they owe me soo much for being such a good friend. I don't want to be repayed for anything i've done for them. Knowing my friend is happy is all that i want in return.....though i don't even know if they are. Am I a Good friend to her? I don't even know that anymore. I hate worring her. I feel like the lowest form of s**t when i do. I don't want to worry her, and don't want to bottle my pain inside. I'm just out of it. Don't know whether i'm coming or going. I feel as though everything is becoming a blur to me as time goes by. It's been rather weird. I don't why...but i feel rather awkward around her and everyone else....but more her. I just don't know and i'm scared. I fear of all that's happening and what is gonna happen when time comes to graduate. I just want the answers. I've been asking sooo many and getting soo few answers. With every closed door, another opens. What am I to do anymore? I can't take the pain anymore. it hurts too much.
HELLBOUND CROW · Fri Dec 03, 2004 @ 07:35pm · 1 Comments |