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When can I fall asleep knowing that someone is falling asleep thinking about me??
I fall asleep thinking of him, he is on my mind constantly but am I on his??
My gut feels empty and shallow, and not because of the lack of food...
Shallow to the point of breaking open the pieces of my soul that i keep hidden far from view...
Scared of what cant be sewed
I find myself indulging in pictures of him, and checking my phone...
I hope for that little notification telling me I'm on his mind.
What used to be normal has changed to being distant.
What good are promises people make if they break them anyway??
I promise this, I promise that...
It's nothing if you cant prove it at a flip of a hat.

I want to know what it feels like to be loved unconditionally and without fail
But if i experienced that, maybe it wouldnt be worth my fall...
I'm casting out my foolish heart
It's no good going into this thing with my eyes closed...