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Stupid-no-Jutsu : The art of being stupid.
Finally released in a totally unabridged format.
So obscure.

I decided to go back to the first entries of this journal - I was so happy then, where did it go? Almost two years worth of entries and from what I can see it just turned horribly wrong.

My fault, obviously. However I can't blame myself forever, but once you start its hard to stop.

Maybe I should just stop caring altogether and go back to putting my feelings aside. Its apparent that no one cares for me in the way I want them to. I cannot and will not force anyone to do that. But what bothers me even more than that is the fact that people are treating me like a child. "Go out and get it yourself, I won't help you". These people didn't have to do anything and they got what they wanted.

They're just lucky.

Lady luck is not on my side, she still believes I need punishment.

A certain blonde friend of mine knows exactly what I am talking about.

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Aside from that, I'm alright. Nothing interesting to report, not a damn thing. However, I'm planning to cut all emotional ties from people at my work. 'Tis better for me to work without any sort of attachment, for when I leave it will be easier.

Tomorrow is the offical end of the semester. Next week is finals week. Woot.

And Brian Setzer kicks a**. Go rockabilly go.






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blighton
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commentCommented on: Wed May 10, 2006 @ 05:38am
This is the first time I'm going to try and help you in a while and if offends you in anyway just delete this ok? I think you seriously have enough things to start a new life and build some happiness for yourself. Also I don't know if you know colion but maby you two should go out. I think you would have to go to ALexia or steve for that thought. either way you life really is looking up from a year ago and I wish you the best.


commentCommented on: Wed May 10, 2006 @ 05:47am
Not offended, I was quite shocked to see that you made a comment.

Yeah, Aleixa mentioned Colin to me, and this guy from South Africa; however, whenver Andrea or myself would mention those guys she'd say she'd help us, but then forget because she is too "busy" with Steve. I've got no idea where to go or what to do, and she hasn't been helping me very much in that aspect. *shrug* C'est la vie, eh?

I'm glad she found someone nice, Steve is a very amiable guy. He'll he even let me use his jacket when I told him I wasn't cold - he threw it at me. o_o;

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Yeah, I guess my life has looked up since then, I'm without Raymond, got a job, going to school and trying to get things in proper order, but right now it just feels like its falling apart y'know. Sometimes I feel like I don't need this "happiness" I seek because it will block my future career aspects...but as a friend once told me, love is something that we want and need at the same time, and without it most things seem useless in the end. *shrug*...It should happen soon, when you're down on your luck the only way to go is up - its just knowing how low you can get before things can only go up.

So yeah, go rambling.



ShaIIow
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Stryke
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commentCommented on: Wed May 10, 2006 @ 06:32am
Good luck on your finals!


commentCommented on: Wed May 10, 2006 @ 06:35am
Thanks. heart



ShaIIow
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