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Sooo, this journal entry is going to be about my crazyness. You see, I'm an incredibly jealous and insecure person and it's really driving me crazy. I look at myself and I don't like what I see. I feel bad that my boyfriend has to put up me, I really do. I wasn't always jealous and insecure. I mean, I've always been slightly jealous and insecure, but not nearly this bad. Things happened in the past that kind of changed me.. I really hate the way that I am. I hate that when I see myself, I know that he can do so much better. I hate that I feel that way..

I become uncontrollably happy when he tells me that he loves me. I love hearing that he enjoys my comany. I really just want him to be happy. I want to make him happy. I want to be good girlfriend. I want him to be proud to call me his. I really hope he's proud to have me...

There's always that one person that has to bring you down. That's most definitely gotta be my cousin. She texted me today and we were talking for a while. She brought up something that happened in the past and well... That got me thinking about things, and yeah. Now we're here.. I just really hope that he is proud to call me his.. I really hope so...