Well for the past week i have been avoiding the moment of seeing my x.
I was at the gameshop and he just happened to show up...
i pailed, then about jumped up... forgetting those months that we were apart, completely, like they never happened, like we had been together this entire time.
He saw me pail then looked as if he was going to leave. "Long time no see, how are you?" I asked...
he said good, then slowly made his way towards me, as if i was going to attack him. He turned around for a split moment, and the shirt he was wearing (i always liked this shirt, it had all kinds of Finnish on it i believe) curved around his lower back; my hands clentched and loosened... i could remember his smell, the feel of my hands around his soft waist... *is crying*
he ignores me and sits down.
My friend and him chat for a bit, when my friend stand up to start putting his paints away he starts to sing, "....oooh wowo for the longest time.... once i thought my innocence was gone..."
my x stopped moving, i furrowed my eyebrows wondering why that song seemed so recent.
just before we broke up i made him a CD of songs that i thought he would like. The one i treasured the most and thought represented our relationship the best was... that song.
my x changed the subject.
we left, and got x-men III tickets... one for my x, who was not with us, but will tomorow...
how cruel for the gods to use my closest friend like that... they laugh at my saddness as they use that human body to make two x lovers feel like the crap that they are.
how can you do that? to me? i have done nothing to purposefully displease you! Just leave him out of these games... i thought i was your tool not those around me...
and i still care about him... i'm not sure if i want to post this in my DA journal... too many people read it that would tell him, and he would readit after hearing about it; be the info he was given wrong or right (most of it is wrong).
all that i am thinking now, is how nice a hug from magneto would be... heart
 KakeGirlArjuna · Thu May 25, 2006 @ 06:52am · 0 Comments |
