I can feel it.
Around me, within me, before me and behind me. To the left, to the right, up and down.
All the people who look at me to determine what kind of worth I have. All the people hoping to get something from being near me. All the people pretending to be there for me.
I'm sick of it.
Sometimes I wish I could sprout wings just to fly to a place far far away. Other times I wish I could squash them like bugs. Then there are times when I just want to know why.
Why are you trying to tell me what to do, how to act, and who to be? Why are you trying to act like you care when you don't? Why are you causing me all this stress and anxiety for something I don't even know?
So, here's an answer for everyone:
I don't know what I'm doing with my life yet. I'm 19 for God's sake. I've got my WHOLE LIFE to figure out what I REALLY want to do with it. Badgering me to make a decision or telling me what you think I should do won't do anything to help move the process along. Why you ask? Because, ultimately, the decision is mine. I'm going to make mistakes, hell, I'll probably make a lot of mistakes, but that's okay. I'll learn and gain wisdom from them. I'll do things better in the future. All I need from you is support.
You've all had your chances and lived your lives, so now it's time for me to live MINE. Stop trying to take it over just so you can get a second chance to live yours.