I hold you :
"Stay, please, stay here with me. I fear for my wellbeing if you become absent."
"I'm not leaving. Be calm. I'm close."
"Closer, be closer still. I need you, everything about you, I need you. I need your soft touch, your sweet gaze and your calming voice. I need your loving words and everything that is part of you. Stay here with me, please, don't go. I will be yours for all eternity if you just stay closer to me, at least for now. "
"You're broken in the mind or you are forgetful. We are not lovers."
"That's right. I'm forgetful. Always forgetting that which haunts me the most, that which has broken me for life, that which cripples my soul and wounds me. I am yours but you are not mine. It is why I feel like I am alone at every second of every day; every breath I take is the breath of a lonely heart broken fool."
"You are a fool, if you think you are alone. I am still here, but we are just not lovers."
"We are not lovers. You might as well be two thousand miles away, with a billion people with you. I'm alone, everything in my life points me to that fact. I am nothing at all and you are my everything--."
"Be calm. "
"I am. I am calm."
"You are not alone."
"You're right. I'm not alone. I have you. Not here, but in my dreams. In my dreams, I see you, I talk to you like I used to talk to you, I talk to you like I cannot talk in reality. In my dreams, I hold you, I bare you near, I smell you and I kiss your skin. I hold your hand and I feel you in my heart as I feel myself in yours. I feel it all, I feel loved, I feel human and It feels wonderful, for a few moments, in an imaginary dreamscape, where there is only you and me, and a world that is no longer grey. But then I awake, each time, I always awake, with sadness in my heart and a hole in my soul. A deep dark hatred for humanity and for reality, as a dream always seem brighter than the nightmare of reality, a nightmare where you aren't there."
