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do you have those days that you feel your life dieing away?? i do....some times i think on that one day i was going to kill myself...looking at the boxscutter and that small voice telling me to do it do it...there nothing left for you....you dont have a life to live there no one that wants an ugly dum man....

then i remaber i have friends and i remaber how there life was effted when there other friends die cuz of a drunk driver....i never want then to go throw that agin.....
now i live throw this time thinking how my life sucks the girl i want is seeing an other man good looking smart an army boy i cant ever bet that oh can i im just a person that live many miles away...but i am nice and let her have him ....i dont want her to choose to leave him or me.....i feel so alone here and i wish i had someone to hold to kiss and to feel like im not alone any more...

we all live on a clock and when it stop game over no rest....i will live till i see what god wants with me...so i am in his hands and will give my thoughts to anyone that wants to hear them, but i need something or someone well i gess thats all for now