First of all I'd just like to say I seem to have a clone running around gaia >_<
Recently lots of problems went around my friends, we had some drama and some fights, its all ok now...
Recently I have been alot more angry, alot more upset, and I feel like a right jerk to my friends, I am not at all in my childish way, which upsets me, I hate being a teenager and all these dang hormones.
I fell in love, this time it felt really strong, stronger then Acoe but hes taken and I have to be happy for him.
Last night I was thinking about him, then about how I'll proberbly be always alone, which I don't think I will, and don't say I'm still young I'm only 16 cause I hate that. Then I started thinking about how angry I was being, and around everyone too, I got more upset and started to cry, I cried for at least an hour, and I tossed and turned and tried to sleep at diffrent ends of the bed, I even tried the floor..well after reaching out for a picture I drew when falling off >_O
I eventually fell asleep. During this sleep I had 3 dreams: the first I was in school and in a science class I had to crawl and use things to get up some air pipe or something, I'll skip to the third cause its not as importent as the second: basically I saw a complete copy of me, thats basically it <_<
The second dream really scared me: There were a dozen or so of people and we were all on horse back. I don't know where we were going but we were all heading in the same direction, soon we all stopped to fetch some water, we all decided to stay for awhile and rest too, after I drank some water my horse ran off D;
I walked over to a nearby boy with his horse, it was Jared, I asked him if I could ride with him, he nodded and I tried to hug him, he didn't want to it seemed, he got up onto his horse before I could hug him. I know Jared wouldn't really be like that and he loves me till I'm sure to explode XD but I kept thinking "What if the way I have been recently has made him unsure of me" It was only a dream but it scared me...
I just want to be a child...
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Maybe you're aware of the way you are, maybe you're not.
Anyway, you're the way you are because your teenage life hasn't exactly been the best. School never really helped, and I was always in awe at the way you just took everything in your stride and shrugged it off.
But as you may or may not know, I've always felt sorry for you. There were times in which someone would say something, and I'd want to interfere, but I'm not the most physically strong. If you could fight mentally, believe me, me and you would be the hardest in school. xD
Try to keep happy. That's all I can say, and I mean it. =3