i got 3 hours because i had to fly.
it is an honest recommendation: 90 minutes before liftoff. the tsa agent seemed to relish extracting individually every single goddamn item from my backpack.
would you want to work tsa? i bet they make more than me. capitalist decadence is 20 pounds of chocolate chartered plane. you'd have to live the context...but it's always better looking when you don't.
for a week, i have a single room with a king size bed and a couch to myself on the sixteenth floor. my food budget isn't so great on account of i may have blown $50 on friday drinking with some friends i hope will stick around, but i am not very good at friendships maybe. i'm much more interesting in relationships.
because we don't want relationships with people.
but that's a digression. it's cool to see this site is still running and making appearances at anime conventions. did you know pepe the frog was incubated on gaia? according to some mini documentary on pepe the frog. gaia had its time and place.
although now aren't we less keen about being pixel icons--now the icons look terrifyingly real.
hahaha.
LISTEN UP. the only thing i have learned, kids, in my 1/3 lifespan burned up is that PEOPLE ARE LAZY. we substitute easy sources of gratification for the good, hard stuff. haha. i always write about my relationships
(in case you are wondering how that turned out--never speaking to my ex ever again ended after 1 month when he hit me up at a low point and we had a blissful month of me getting pingponged between two people who are both kinda perfect and neither actually good at all and now we are not speaking again which is actually a huge reason why i am back here all anxious, except very very very deep down to the point of it basically not being a problem)
because i make other people my center as a shortcut to deciding for myself what to do with myself. whoa. their happiness becomes my kind of moony happiness. no good.
you need no one and nothing. the world is big and full of possibilities and your happiness is in your hands. if it doesn't stick, don't force it; that outcome is no good. you gotta keep building your future and find a new goddamn brick.
i still hope it works, but in the meantime, i should do some writing and get some sleep.
sora wonk Community Member 
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