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*sighes softly*

I'm more and more confused now....I really don't know
what I am like, I know I need to keep up a certain appearance
to certain people to avoid uneasy-ness amoung the group....

Studying drama in my last school worked out great, I can fool
people, yet I can't fool myself...and only a small handful...well
less than a handful knows what I truly feel inside....I'm just sad
that one person who understood is having difficulties of her own
and I foolish can't help her enough.

Another person, time difference and bad timing for us to chat...
another girl...I want her to be happy with her life, I really don't
want to put her down even though we are, as I feel we have a
very close friendship.

lol, thats the problem with me, I rather help others rather than my
own, I foolishly see that my life isn't worth going for, yet here I am
still alive, well as long I am here, I will help out as much as I am
allowed to. Even if it means my own heartache.

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SnXTH88AHqM

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Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you’ll never know me

Every day, is as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart
And what I believe in

But somehow
I will show the world
What’s inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don’t know?

Must I pretend that i’m
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There’s a heart that must
Be free to fly
That burns with a need
To know the reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I’m forced to hide?

I won’t pretend that i’m
Someone else
For all time

When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?