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I guess I want to start by saying that this year has been a s**t show and a half. It's been rough for everyone, including me of course.
Right now I'm dealing with a bunch of things. These things include: My dad having Alzheimer's, my painful acne, quitting smoking, the loss of my ex best friend, my cat having some health issues, Covid19 sucking the life out of everything I enjoy, trying to eat well and exercise, manage my money, the fact that my closest friend gets off work so late now we can't hang out much anymore, drama with an online friend about vaping vs. smoking... etc.
I am pretty happy with myself that I've made it to 32 hours smoke free now, even if I am vaping and using the nicotine patch. But OH MY GOD my house and my car smell so much like an ash tray... it's absolutely disgusting. Why would anyone START smoking? It's a really stupid thing to do. I wish there was an easy way to get rid of the smoke smell FAST. I guess I'll try vacuuming my car tomorrow and see if that helps. But that kinda stresses me out too. Just another thing to do!
You could say I'm a wee bit stressed out, yeah. This whole quitting smoking thing is HARD AS ********. But... I think I can do it this time, if I really try.
I'm grateful that my house, while it may smell bad right now, is a very nice house and it's rather cozy and cute. ^^ I've made it pretty beautiful if I say so myself. I really can't wait to talk to my mom tonight.
I guess that's all, ta ta~ heart